Gr8 Walrus (gr8walrus) wrote in beyblade_yaoi,
Gr8 Walrus
gr8walrus
beyblade_yaoi

Hi hi! Remember me? I've finally got out chapter 2 to my story, and wanted my lovely friends on here to be the first to read it. Enjoy!

Disclaimer: Sadly, gr8walrus does not own the Beyblade series, nor the Beyblade peeps. She does this purely for enjoyment and gets no money whatsoever.
Warnings: Everything from chapter 1 (triggering self-harm, suicide attempt, mental health, angst, yaoi blah blah :P) + a lemon and a rather dodgy attempt at humour by the author.
Rating: Remains M
Pairing: Tala/Kai. Who else? :P
((Thoughts))
“Speech”
“Russian”

Any required translations at the end of the chapter!



Tala groaned and reached a hand up to his forehead. He felt like he had the hangover from hell, and had then been run over by a truck, and had his corpse fed to a hungry Wolborg. He cracked open one blue eye, and was met with the harsh glare of the hospital fluorescents. He groaned again and cursed in Russian, before rolling on to his side and opening his eyes fully. There he saw a much nicer sight. Kai was asleep on a chair, legs splayed and head back, snoring. Tala raised an eyebrow. Poise and grace had never been Kai’s strong point.

“Psst. Hey Kai.” No response. Tala tried speaking a little louder. “Hey! Moron! Wake up.”
Still nothing. Tala snorted, rolled his eyes and began looking for something to throw. No matter what the situation, Kai could sleep like the dead. A quality that Tala had always been envious of. His eyes settled on a box of tissues, and he reached over to pick it up. A sharp pain shot through his wrist, reminding him of just why he was in this situation in the first place. ((Failed again.)) He thought, as he ditched the box at his sleeping friend.

“The fuck?” Kai awoke with a start, and quickly scanned the room for the mystery assailant. He saw Tala looking at him with eyes full of both relief, and trepidation. He couldn’t help but be a bit angry at the red-head, now that he was clearly ok. “Why, Tala? Come on; don’t look at me like that. You at least owe me a fucking explanation.” Tala sighed, closed his eyes and said,

“I hate so much who I am, what I've become. I used to be so cold, callous, belligerent, apathetic. I didn't care who I hurt in my fire storm. It actually brought me pleasure knowing I made people cry. I miss that. I miss not hurting, even though I didn't love. Love is not worth it, it's not worth all this pain it brings. And, it seems the more I hurt, the more I love, and then the more I hurt because of that love. I'm growing backwards. Most people start out loving blindly and as they get hurt, they get more cautious. I started out hating the world and everything in it and the more I hurt, the more I open up. And I fucking hate it.”

“I can’t even begin to explain how wrong you are.” Came the soft reply. Kai looked sideways at Tala, who was avoiding eye contact, and picking at his sheets. “Tala, do you like me?”

“Huh? Of course I like you, you fucking ninny. I’ve lived with you for the past eighteen fucking months, haven’t I?”

“No, I mean do you like like me?”

Silence

“Well, my silence is probably answer enough, but I swear I’m trying to put together a proper response.” Tala muttered.

“Take your time. I realize this is like interrupting a delicate waltz with a sledgehammer to the knee.” Kai replied, a slight smirk gracing his face.

“Fuck you. Yeah I like you. I’ve liked you for as long as I can fucking remember. But it’s not reciprocated, so what’s the fucking point? It’s a pipe dream! Why am I even having this fucking conversation?” Tala scowled.

Kai tilted his head to one side and said “And how do you know all this? What makes you think I don’t feel the same way?”

“Jesus fucking Christ Kai, look at me! I’m fucking pathetic! I’m sitting in a hospital bed, my wrists feel like they’re on fucking fire, my hair is a mess, I’ve got a stupid backwards gown on, and however long I was out for, I’m betting that’s the most I’ve slept in about three fucking months! I don’t sleep, I don’t eat and these scars are exactly what you think they are. I am a messed up, fucked up human being, and you don’t need that.” Tala’s rant was interrupted by a nurse, who walked in and informed them that visiting hours were over. Kai walked over to the bed,

“How about you let me be the judge of what I fucking need,” Kai said, as he leant over and gave Tala a quick kiss on the lips. “I’ll see you tomorrow.” He said, rather gruffly, and turned and walked out the room.

Tala unconsciously touched his lips. Before he was sad and angry, now he was sad and fucking confused. ((Kai couldn’t like me, could he?)) He hugged his knees to his chest and frowned. ((Well, we can certainly chalk this up as being one weird-ass fucking day.))

The next day, Kai arrived at the hospital early, and walked in to Tala’s room to find him packing the few belongings he came in with. “Tala, what the fuck are you doing?”

“What the fuck’s it look like? I’m leaving.”

“What? No, you need to stay. You fucking tried to kill yourself. You need these people to help you. I’ll visit every day, just please, stay here.”

“Kai, calm the fuck down. They discharged me. A shaking of the finger and a firm ‘don’t do it again’ was all they said*.” Tala sighed, threw his bag over his shoulder, pushed past a shocked Kai and walked out of the room.

“Tala, you can’t be serious. What if you try again? Are you going to try again?” Kai asked. Tala looked back over his shoulder and shrugged.

“I dunno.” He continued walking out of the hospital toward the car park.

“Dammit, that’s not fucking good enough!” Kai chased after Tala, and tried to grab his shoulder, but Tala shrugged him off.

“Where’d you park?”

“Don’t you fucking ignore me, we need to talk about this. I need to know that this isn’t going to happen again.” This time Kai grabbed Tala’s shoulder roughly, and pushed him against the car. Tala pushed Kai’s hands off of him.
“What do you want me to tell you Kai? I don’t. Fucking. Know. Alright? I don’t know how I feel, what I feel, if I feel. Just let me go.”

“I can’t lose you. I can’t fucking lose you.” Kai said, his voice starting to break. Tala closed his eyes and looked away.

“Kai, I…” he started, before he became aware of a pair of lips launching an attack on his own. He dropped his bag and quickly deepened the kiss, licking the lower lip of the younger Russian, asking for entrance which was quickly granted. He explored Kai’s beautiful mouth with his tongue, savoring every taste and moment, in case he was dreaming. He buried one hand in the blue hair, while the other busied itself snaking its way down Kai’s back toward his firm ass, making sure that he committed the feeling of Kai’s muscles dance into his memory. Tala heard an electronic beep, signaling that Kai had unlocked the car. The hand that gripped hair now felt behind him for the door handle, which he quickly found and pulled open. He broke the kiss and looked in Kai’s deep ruby eyes, “I won’t do this if you’re going to regret it.”

“Get in the fucking car.” Came the reply. Tala smiled a million-volt smile, and allowed himself to be pushed into the backseat of the car. Kai straddled him, and nipped his earlobe before attaching himself to the red-head’s neck, leaving a possessive love bite. Tala meanwhile, had returned his hands to Kai’s ass, and had buried his face in the crook of the bluenette’s neck, making a mark of his own just above Kai’s collarbone. Kai once again began to kiss Tala, and was this time met with an immediate open mouth, and a tongue battling his own for dominance. Kai was quick to rid Tala of his jacket and shirt, and he just lightly ran his fingers over a nipple, causing Tala to moan and lift his hips off the seat. It was now Tala’s turn to remove the clothing from Kai’s torso, and he did so with the same impatience as Kai. Tala pulled out of the kiss for a moment, a lack of oxygen becoming a distinct problem. Kai looked down at the older Russian, flushed and panting beneath him. It was a beautiful sight, and he knew he wouldn’t be able to control himself much longer. He leaned over and whispered a command in his soon-to-be lover’s ear. “Switch.” Tala was too overcome with lust to do anything other than what he was told. Tala ground his hips against Kai’s, and this time, it was the bluenette’s turn to moan. Kai grabbed the waist-band of Tala’s pants. “Off. Now.” This time Tala grinned, and replied cheekily,

“Monkey see, monkey do.” Kai raised an eyebrow, but took the hint, and both boys removed their pants, albeit rather awkwardly ** as they became aware of the confines of their chosen location. But at least now they were free of bothersome material, and Tala resumed his place on Kai’s lap. Tala began to rub his cock against Kai’s, causing them both to moan. Kai offered his fingers to Tala and ordered him to suck. Tala took Kai’s fingers in his mouth, and coated them generously in saliva, mimicking the actions he would perform on Kai’s member if there were enough room in the car to show off his blow job skills. Kai felt himself growing harder by the second, and he knew if he let Tala keep this up, there wouldn’t be a main course in this meal. He removed his fingers from the delicious mouth, and pushed one finger in to Tala’s entrance, then two, scissoring to make room for himself. Tala whimpered slightly at the intrusion, and clutched on to Kai’s hair and back a bit tighter. Kai began placing soothing, feathery light kisses on Tala’s cheek, and with his free hand, stroked his erection to take his mind off of the pain. Soon Tala’s whimpers turned to moans, and he knew he needed to feel Kai’s cock in him. Both men locked eyes, as Tala lowered himself onto Kai, allowing himself to be filled by the man he had loved for so long. After a few moments of adjustment, Tala began to thrust down hard onto Kai, and Kai couldn’t help but lift his hips, grinding the two lovers together. Kai grabbed hold of Tala’s slim hips, setting a furious pace.

“Oh…God Tala! Oh fuck! Oh, ah ah…” Kai couldn’t stop the string of nonsense coming out of his mouth. Not that he really wanted too. Tala was also having a hard time controlling himself, when a particularly loud moan tore from his throat and he threw his head back. Through a haze of pleasure, Kai realized Tala had found that all important spot, and did whatever he could to make sure Tala hit it every time. He grabbed hold of Tala’s manhood and began pumping in time with his thrusts.

“Oh fuck Kai! I can’t…I ca…AAHH!” With a final scream of pleasure, Tala released all over his and Kai’s chests. Feeling Tala clamp around him, it only took a couple more thrusts before Kai too, came undone, spilling everything he had into Tala. Both men went limp, Tala on top of Kai, panting and shaking as they both tried to catch their breath. Once Kai felt able to speak, he gently pulled Tala’s head from its resting place in the crook of his neck,

“Now do you see how much I fucking need you?”

Tala gave a small, exhausted smile, and snuggled back into Kai. “Hey Kai?”

“Hn?”

“Thank fuck your windows are tinted!”

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A/N – *It’s not uncommon to be discharged as soon as you’re “medically stable” after a suicide attempt. Shortest I’ve ever been in hospital following an attempt was six hours. At least that’s what it’s like in Australian hospitals.
**Ever tried to take your pants off in the back seat of a car and still be sexy? Awkward is an understatement!
Holy crap! I decided to sit down and actually write this chapter and before I know it, it’s 2am! I have to be up for work in 3 hours! Worth it though. Also, if you’ve never had crazy-car-sex, go get your significant other (or whoever, really) and do it. You can thank me later ;)
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